If you love someone, set them free

this is a turning point
can you see it?
right there
this is where I turn away
lay down my weapons
and fight for you
no longer
(it was a losing battle)
this is it, darling
this is the moment where we
sink
or maybe
steel ourselves
and swim
I could lose you
forever, maybe
or I’ll be ever so lucky
and every prophecy made
by every
cheesy teen movie
sad love song
romance novel
will come true
and you’ll come back
just because
you want me
more than anything

Why I didn't answer my phone today

I hide from you
to protect myself
because if I let my heart
get tangled up in your
hot and cold
there and gone
love me, hate me
it’s still an obsession
world

then I would drown
fade
and die
all because I love you
just a little too much
all because when I met you
I realized that you were
a piece that I had been missing
but now I know
that your piece is too close to my heart
there is too much of a risk
of breakage
you put my pieces back together
only to tear me apart

Fading with you would be positively nautical

if you and I
we’re going to drown
then let’s drown together
grab onto each other
life preservers both
and float in the darkness
as we slowly sift downwards
onto the sharp edged rocks
that await
if you and I
we’re going to drown
we can at least give each other
a little something else to hold onto
though you have yours
and I have mine
when all the world is
obliterated
by waves and breakers
somehow I know that then
it will be just
you and I
who drown
so we will clutch
at each other
hold on for dear life
as she slips away from you
as I slip away from me
baby, let’s drown together
breathe deep the waves
and sink beyond caring

Denial, Tears, and Prayer at Midnight

(darling, this is for you)

i almost called you last night
in the midst of my tears
i lay in bed
cell phone in hand
and watched your number
swim and blur
before my teary eyes
i wanted to call you
because you are the one
who puts my pieces back together
i wanted to call you
the friend you
the almost me you
but somehow i knew
if i dialed the phone
it would be answered by
the you
who makes my stomach knot
the one i can never have
that shiny shattered
made of dreams you
who only appears when i
can’t feel anyone else
in the dark when my
shadows scream about loss
and i hide under the covers
like a little child and chant
your name like i’m praying

and part of me
always thinks you might just
walk in the door
if i cry for you enough
and then i wouldn’t need to call.

Trapeze Artist, Run Away From Home, Multicolored Love

and baby
I’m out of my head out of
my mind
tangled up in your crazyass words
and your beautiful eyes
and I don’t know why I can’t
just
get
the
hell
away from you and
and your mind games
I dream of you in
psychedelic, burning colors
but never black and white because
oh, darling,
you know
that you and I
we are just shades of gray
and that is all we’ll
ever be
unless you stop pretending
open your eyes to the
awesome technicolor love
I have for
you
and only
you

Runaway (For PC)

let’s

run away to San Francisco,
Paris, and New York
get matching tattoos
and lip rings
that mirror when we kiss
run in the rain
in formal wear
touch under streetlights
and drink chai
in graffitied cafes
sing
I Wanna Hold Your Hand
while holding hands
in some distant city
where we’ve never
been known
take photos on rooftops
and adopt kittens
by the dozen
eat nothing but macaroni
and popsicles
for months at a time
and wear black
every day of the year
fall in love again
every time we breathe.

Here Are My Empty Words for You

no matter what you say to me
no matter how this ends
for one touch one moment one glance
i was loved

in the dark of cold nights
and in the harsh light of day
i simple sit, close my eyes
and remember that time
when you loved me

the memory has saved me
time and time again
from fear and broken hearts
your hand on my waist
and your breath on my ear
just your presence
just the warmth of your gaze

i have faded without you,
darling
without this memory
there would be
nothing
left
but
empty
words